yes. teachers may be smarter than you. older and therefore have more life experience than you. been through more of life's crap and therefore is more mature and wise than you. but that doesnt mean they're always right. and that doesnt mean they always know everything.

do they know they're students well enough?? well enough to judge without knowing the full story? to judge their actions and write them off as unmoral and disappointing?
given that one. teachers are very busy people that dont have time to sit around and chat and two. since teachers cannot possibly get to know every single one of the 35 students in a class well enough then is it fair that the teacher to think he knows us well enough to throw words around like they dont hurt?

or perhaps its just me, right? too sensitive at "digs" from him. too trusting- to have told him. too naive to believe every single word that he says. i listened to you for more than one second.yes, i agree the devil tempts you little by little when your guard is down, little by little he crumbles your resolve and determination and your morals all start rolling downhill. but how dare you ask me if i know the bible well enough.would it be my fault if i dont. would it be my fault that you have had more time, approximately twenty years or so, more than me to study the Bible and walk in God's grace? therefore, you imply that you know the Bible better? do you even know your text in the since textbook? didnt you know, that all you need to do is ask God for strength, recognize your weaknesses and sins and God will bless you with strength to overcome anything the devil throws your way? or did you just miss that out on purpose? "the devil can cott the scripture for his own purposes." mov- bassanio AND HE WAS RIGHT. wasnt he? (okay, only if i take an anti-shylock stand)


Jeremiah 1:19
"They will fight against you but will not overcome you, for I am with you and will rescue you," declares the LORD.

1 corinthains 10:13
'No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it. '


is it fair to me, when you ask me what type of Christian am i?
at least say it to my face, privately. not when its during a class, whereby i cannot selfishly disrupt it. not when your 5metres away, where you are safely away from any physical damage i may feel like executing.
is it fair to me that you are in every way status wise in the position to thumb me down and keep using my faith against me? you are my form teacher. and unless i want to be dragged by your glare down to mr ang i cannot argue. because you are an elder, i have to give you without question a certain level of respect.
to me and to my generation that actually thinks-
respect must be earned. and respect must be kept.

are you being fair to anabel, to demand of her an explanation when she is incapable of doing so? why incapable, because she's shy. soft spoken. unable to perform under pressure. you ask her to read out the answers for a page out of the workbook and she has to repeat 4 times because no one can hear her. and you demand an answer of her to defend herself? she's isnt yvonne. therefore, when i tell you 1. you dont know your students, you dont know anabel and its unfair for you to scold her like that. 2. you didn not get the full picture before scolding her. and me. 3.its just not fair. its not wrong of me to do so. at least, i dont think so.

what does the school think. will this piece of blog go all the way to Miss Heng. will he sue. will i get into so much trouble it is necessary for me to change school. will i go to jail.


now. when tears stain my face. when i rant and rave inside. when i cannot contain my misery at this unfairness in the world. when its proven to me twice, you should not trust everyone that calls himself a Christian. now, when im affected by your words. your words that to me are so evil to the ears. your words that make me doubt myself. my faith. my religion even. does it matter, to me? yes. and i want you to know that.

twenty years later, will this matter? will i look back and remember this? will i ever let down this grudge, this losing side against you? forgetting is one thing. forgiving is another.

and this is all part of life.