Vanilla

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sigh. vanilla's so.. boring! i wanted this

 

i was going to post a long angry post because i feel that its totally unfair to scold me for going online n seeking peopel to chat on msn. i think its totally unfair to scold me for numbers on a phone bill [my incoming calls la. they're free but the time spent [$400 worth... 2600+minutes..] was the one that rendered me a scolding and stern warning and yea.. everything else that comes along] and THEN complain that you're lonely when you come home earier than me coz im still at sch.

 

1. its afternoon.for three hours at most.its not so bad. i get left at home alone at NIGHT when you know v well i scared of the dark. [okae. the fear is being OVERCOMED. in the process.] for as long as 6-7 hours.

 

2. im an only child. and a teenager AT THE SAME TIME. so duh. i need people to talk to. then you complain i dont talk to you. thats because i love you. i care. that you're alwyas so busy. doing the house work [hey. i really do help. infact. i try so hard that i hyperventilate and laugh at the same time-too stressed and the bamboo pole-you know the one you hang clothes?- drops ontop of me OW. okae. OW.] and working part-time and stuyding night classes. so would you have time for me telling you every single little detail abt wad exactly happend at school and how i feel abt dropping a banana on anabels head [which is a good idea MUST try it sometimes]

NO YOU DONT.just admit you dont have that luxury of time and stop asking for so much! coz even if i DO try and talk. you're only half listening. whats the point?

 

3.there is no three. buit it seems the long angry post came out anyway.

blah dee dah.

im going to PURPOSELY keep encouraging you to continute your night classes. PURPOSELY encourage you to give all you've got for god's ministy so i will be alone at home EVEN MORE. and then after everything,  i change into a stronger better person [dont laugh la...] i can say "haha. see i didn die."

and in the end. everything's all for nothing. like wad matt said la. your time is god's time and he wants you to use it wisely.which makes me think. am i really using time wisely, such long hours on the computer. i could instead go and do QT for extra one hour couldnt i?

to anyone out there. who actually bothered to read up there. even if you feel that its TOALLY POINTLESS too talk to your parents. try to anyway <-this is not ramblings of a crazy one la. coz they have their difficulties and they love you unconditionally. even if they dont show it. so try digging in abit, or make the first step and tell them how you feel abt blahdeedah.maybe they'll open up. maybe there'll be spirit led coveration change and gets you two talking abt *insert wad God wants two of you to talk abt here* and you guys bond. you honestly say you dont want a proper relationship with the person who brought you up? come on la. who's the one who gives you pocket money again huh? not your best friend.

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today i went to web late. cant stand myself. ag. missed a great deal of the worship. all but the last song. but the sermon and the ending songs really meant something to me and talked to me. and as the tears ran down my face, i wondered 'why on earth am i crying' [having spent a great deal of time in the morning crying.. i thought i reached the day's tear quota limit la...] then only now i realised. maybe its because god wants me to surrender. so thats what im doing. cleasning process.

-five people wore green.

coincidence la. fun okae. nothing else.

I LOVEEEE JAN'S SHIRT. offered to trade. he declined DUH.

-mag's lamb was tortured burtally chopped and grilled into lamb chop thanks [to me.] and jan. i took a picture. but sadly. i cant conect the phone to the com and show you guys wad gems i have in there. lols.

-i have gen's pic to scan. and i have sujah's student id card to scan [yeah... still holding it ransom] and i want to photobucket me n anabel's anime freak neoprint and me-n-pw-and-5random-others-neo [did you noe you can squeeze 7 ppl into a neo? so cool. xD ] tell the world i lvoe my friends too bits.. waha.

-exmas coming. exams ending.... soon.... ag.