s'capade was a blast. they blasted music and the netballers played netball, the others ate food and laughed and basically did random things.. we, were having fun getting wet. (^_______^)" well, i do remember eating a banana. hahahahaha. yes, the banana thing again. the whole thing was coming to an end, everyone was so high, hahaha jumping up n down and sceaming out lyrics. really so funn!! it was one of those times you could really taste the sc spirit in the air. =D hahaha.
altho i felt, it was a mistake on my part to have spent time there jumping around instead of studying, im dont want to dwell on it now.

went to anabel's hse on sat morning. (peiwen got harry potter book 6!! the poster looks so yummy. xD hahahaha.) then finished abt half of everything- the project, not the book. before i left for church. actually wanted anabel to come to church with me too, but because we hadnt finshed the project.. sad.
hahaha. we ordered in pizza- one large yummy tantalising hawaian pizza. ahahahaha. and garlic bread and coke. yum yum. then after we finshed everything, greedy gen brainwashed us into ordering yet another yummy tantalising stuffed crust cheese hawain pizza. wooots. note, we ordered it while we were still pretty hungry. hahaha. by the time it came (45 mins later) we were stuffed. i guess pizza takes time to "expand" and fill in the stomach (^___^) needless to say, gen was facing a large pizza all by herself. hahahahaha.

sat web felt so comforting. cause my mum had called earlier to yell, abt grades and responsiblity and why do i have to spend so much time at church, i felt so conered and confused. but i really felt god's comforting presnce around me during the last fifteen minutes in the prayer coner. so now i know, he'll always be there to help me through and make me a better person. i didn realise then but now, when i think back and recall the emotions that were going thru me at that time-i was hugging god, and he was hugging me back. i think i'll do wad mark said; find the path of light and walk it, away.

i resolve to bring tissue parper to church every saturday.
when your tears taste of blood, you know something is horribly amiss.
i sorta realise now what some guys have against crying and showing emotion.
why is it when i out my hand in yours, you dont feel it?
but people arnd you, wont think you weak if you shed a tear.
dont sit like stone when blood runs in your viens.
-gratino, MOV.
dont bother putting up a front,
you've torn away my defense.
be yourself and come back to god.
you said you'd protect me, now where have you gone?
where did you go, woolly mammoth?
god wants a relationship with you. god, is a jealous god.
"i am- extinct."
eternal life doesnt start when you die.
it starts when you die to your sins.
it starts now.



as you can see, im still pretty much confused.
[im never going to write a songfic.. huh.]





the wild starry eyed girl, my window to the soul.