finefinefine. me needs to say sorry to ca. n victor? and start saving for their honeymoon. and their damned candle light dinner. oh yar.. and ca's wedding dress. at this rate i'll be broke by the time she decided to forgive me.

forgiven but not forgotten..

losta things r like that.

i've forgiven victor. but have not forgotten..

victor has forgiven me. but has not forgotten. umm.. maybe not so. he has even forgotten all good memories. [which i feel is a bonus.]

carine. she [and yy and the rest of e world] has this knack of bullying me like hell. i have nothing to sae abt her. actually i do. but i would rather keep it to myself.

i will b putting this blog to an end. lol..

wad my father says is jus too true. y shld i be interested in sharing my dreams. stories. days of life wif ppl who will one dae turn againt me. and use wad i have blogged against me? y shld i.

other den THAT. i have losta things going wrong..

my friend who's 10years and 10 mths.. nearing 11.. died.. on mondae.. 7am. wen he shld have been at sch. it suddenly hit me. hard. fast. cruelly.

life is that fragile.

i cried n cried n cried. i jus cant believe it. we were never very close.. but we were friends at the least.. and i didn get to say bye.. i regret that most..

now they tell me his sister.. who's sec 1 this year too.. is dying.. i cant stand it much longer. i wonder for their parents..

i pray.. for heaven's calm opening doors, painless smiles.. for comfrot in wad's left.. but im scared.. life is that easy to be lost.. all thoses times i was feeling down n sucidal.. i realli can ram my head into e wall.. here r ppl who want to live.. but cant.. and here i am..

mistake.big mistake..

ppl out der.. im serious..

theres a void in me, left unfilled. will be left unfilled. and wont b filled anyime soon.. i dont want that in you.. trust me. you dont want it either. you cant lie to yourself at this point.. it may feel that you have years strecthing ahead.. but i cant help wondering. would you miss me if i would to go tmr..


I wake up in the morning
Put on my face
The one that's gonna get me
Through another day
Doesn't really matter
How I feel inside
'Cause life is like a game sometimes

But then you came around me
The walls just disappeared
Nothing to surround me
And keep me from my fears
I'm unprotected
See how I've opened up
Oh, you've made me trust

Because I've nver felt like this before
I'm naked
Around you
Does it show?
You see right through me
And I can't hide
I'm naked
Around you
And it feels so right

I'm tyring to remember
Why I was afraid
To be myself and let the
Covers fall away
I guess I never had someone like you
To help me, to help me fit
In my spirit

I never felt like this before
I'm naked
Around you
Does it show?
You see right through me
And I can't hide
I'm naked
Around you
And it feels so right

I'm naked
Oh oh yeah
Does it show?
Yeah, I'm naked
Oh oh, yeah yeah

I'm so naked around you
And I can't hide
You're gonna see right through, baby