do not so NOT look at me like that. i feel nothing but guilt. nothingnothingnothing but gulit and hatred for meself. i die!!!

it's all my fault. i dont even try to blame anyone else. (but victor for leaving his phone lying around.) but other then that it's all my fault.

and stop saying "you noe alr right?" to me. i do not noe! im am NOT some tye of physco freak that can see into the past, present, future wadeva!!!!!!!!!!

ok. breathe.

if you dont noe wad's happening. go ask carine. it's not my place to tell you. anyway, she did ask me not to tell. so TOO BAD! come and bugger me for details and you die! so if you value your life, don't even try to get under my skin. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!!!!

but im not always online.. so maybe you ppl out there r safe.

haha.. on to less depressing stuff.

...

wad in mylife is not depressing?

argh!

haha. joking.. lolx.

one thing that shines in my life? carine, shirley, joy.

i am blessed to have these peeps as my friends.

although having shirley as a friend is like having no friend in her at all.

ahh! ::ducks flying tomatoes from shirley::

i take it back!

haha..

kk. insanity over.. but i would like to dedicate a song to victor on carine behalf. did i phrase that correctly?

we were sounding like a perfect choir when carine HAD to say: i dedicate this song to victor.

i was playing the paino and went: BR-RANG! wad the heck?! im not playing if its dedicated to victor.

all joy and shirley did was eww. or laugh. or both. heck la. haha..

so here it goes.

My Heart Will Go On. foreva? is der a foreva at the end?)
:: head gets smashed by the other three::
me: okok already!!!

every night in my dreams..

me: blahblahblah. you noe the rest.
::gets conked on the head wif a frying pan by carine::
me: heyyy!!!

i see you, i feel you.
that is how i know you..
go on..
Far across the distance,
and spaces between us,
you have come to show you..
go on..

me: that so doe not make sense. to me. i mean, you have come to show YOU?? come on!!!
::carine raises frying an treateningly::
me: gulp.

near..
far...
where ever you are.
i believe that the heart does go on..

once- more- you open-

the part where everybody goes helplessly out of tune. haix. you dare to laugh you try. hurmph. haha..

the door.
and you're here in my heart,
and my hert will go on and on-

me: yayadada. get on wif it already!!!
::conk!::
me: ow.

love can touch us one time and last for a lifetime.
and never let you go till we're one.
love was when i loved you,
one true time i hold to.
in my life we'll always go on..

near..
far..
where ever you are
i believe that the heart does go on...

once- more- you open- the door.
and you're here in my heart,
and my heart will go on and on--



yay! i did it wif out puking. well.. i own them.
::gulit kicks in::

shuddup lil voice in my head!!!

now.. i need to find a song to dedicate to joy, shirley n carine. hmm..

ale